taking my Life back

I relapsed two weeks ago. As always, my decision seemed manageable. However, one day of drinking, turned into two consecutive weekends of belligerents. My main issue with drinking is that it consumes all aspects of my life. When I am not drinking, I am thinking about drinking. After a day and night of drinking, I am recovering from it's effects, sometime up to three days later. I do want to live a sober life, today at least. I find it interesting and sad how often I have said and attempted to do so over the past 11 years. will see.